The
memory really was so painful cos it was the first time a guy laid his hands on
me.
It
all happened one fateful evening when we were together in his room, he carried
me on his laps and began touching me as usual. First it was my bosoms he
caressed, squeezed and fondled, he then drew down the hands of my singlet which
gave him clear access to my unprotected bosoms. Even though i do enjoy his touch which really was very sweet,
what worried me was his inability to control his urge, which really was in
excess with each passing day.
I
soon felt his joystick on my as.s as it rose slightly, while he kissed my neck
and ear as he fondled and caressed my aroused bosoms.
“Baby
you smell nice” he said to me while i blushed, and truthfully Mike really is a
master of sweet words which he always used on me cos he knew i loved it.
His
right hand slowly found it’s way to my laps which was bare, cos i was wearing a
short loose skirt, and his touch really was magical and so sweet that my k—y
was soon very wet with k—y fluid. I closed my eyes as he touched, kissed and
romanced me………
I
soon felt his fingers on my k—y as he expertly worked on it while i moaned
slowly.
“Baby
easy” i begged, but my pleas only aroused him further and he increased his
tempo fingering, kissing and caressing me all over.
Gosh
i felt so hot as more k—y fluid dripped out of my k—y. He then turned me to
face him, kissed me gently for a while before dropping me on his bed, pulled
off pant, parted my legs and immediately brought his head down on my k—y. I
soon felt the warmth of his tongue and the fire it drew as he licked and worked
on my k—y.
“Oh
easy baby, you are killing me” i begged as i moaned, while he licked more and
more to the extent of assisting his tongue with his fingers.
“Jeez,
Mike totally spoiled my k—y with his various techniques, and all i did was just
to moan, plead and wriggle my waist as he licked my k—y dry………
Finally
after what seemed like an eternity, he raised up his head and i heaved a sigh
of relief and exhaustion.
“Baby
it’s now your turn to suck me” he said as he pulled down his knicker while his
huge joystick raised its head and nodded, but I looked at him and said nothing.
“What
is it baby? Sit up nah” he said as he drew my hand in order for me to sit up
but i refused, which left him extremely surprised.
“what
is the matter?” he asked
“I
can’t do it” i replied, and he smiled.
“Baby
there is nothing in it. C’mon sit up let me teach you” he said, but i shook my
head, cos only the thought of his huge joystick in my mouth sent shivers down
my spine.
“I
won’t cos i don’t like it” i said arrogantly, while he stared at me as i got up
from his bed and dressed up. His eyes burned furiously as he watched me.
“Baby
why are you so selfish?” he finally asked, while i eyed him.
“You
are the one very selfish all you now know is s-x, just see how skinny you have
become” i replied with a hurtful tone, which really was a big mistake and it
earned me two powerful slaps on my face while i held my jaw and stared at him
in shock and disbelief.
I
stared at him angrily and in shock for a while, before rushing back to my room
in tears.
“Baby
i’m sorry” I heard him apologise as he followed me but i shut my door and
locked it before he could enter. I really was so hurt that day cos i never
believed mike would ever lay his hand on me.
Tears
flowed freely from my eyes as i remembered how i felt that day. “Why am i
even remembering all these?” i asked myself as i cleaned my eyes, but then it
was my feelings for Benjamin which was bringing my past experience back to my
head, and i had no control over it.
I
soon heard a steady knock on my door, which brought me out from my thoughts. I
immediately composed myself as i went to open my door and when i opened it,
there stood Benjamin with a smile on his face, and he peered into the dark
room.
“Are
you still sleeping? It’s almost 7:45pm” he asked me while i forced a smile.
“Actually
i wasn’t even sleeping oo” i replied as i yawned, switched on my bulb and
allowed him in. He entered, looked around for a while before staring at me
again. I tried to hide my face by looking down, but his sharp eyes noticed my
dull face and red eyes. Seriously guys can be very sharp when it comes to
reading a girl’s face, especially a girl they are interested in.
“What’s
wrong? What happened?” he asked seriously and with care, while i sat on my bed
and looked away, he was soon beside me and he held my hands tenderly.
“Please
what is it, maybe i could be of help?” he asked, while i forced a smile.
“Don’t
worry it’s nothing” i replied, but he just shook his head.
“I
don’t believe you, moreover nobody cries over nothing” he insisted.
“Benjamin
it’s nothing serious, i just remembered someone i used to care for” i explained
and he smiled.
“Ok,
I now understand, so where is he?” he asked but i just gave him a blank look.
“Why
do you want to know?” i asked back as i rolled my eyes, which made him to smile
and shrug. But then my retort didn’t put him off, instead he drew closer to me
and looked into my eyes.
“Sweetheart
a problem shared is a problem solved, moreover sharing your story with a friend
sometimes helps to reduce tension and bad feelings, and i equally promise to
share my own story with you when you are done with yours” he said to me
fearlessly, while i looked at him silently as i battled within my mind whether
to share my secret with him or not. I thought to myself that no matter my
feelings for him, he still is a boy and might use it against me in future, but
the way he stared at me really showed he cared and the sparkle in his eyes were
very real and filled with love. My eyes melted again and i burst into
tears while he held me in his arms and consoled me.
“It’s
okay baby” he said with his gentle voice, and truthfully I didn’t know how i
felt that moment cos it has been a long time a guy held me in that manner.
His
arms were comforting and i really felt like sleeping in them when he held me,
but then i equally didn’t want to appear vulnerable or weak to him
and so i managed to control and keep myself in check by drying my eyes.
“It’s
okay everything happens for a purpose, what are you going to eat tonight?” he
asked, while i said nothing.
“I
have soup, i can make garri for you” he said, which made me to laugh.
“Thanks
Ben you are a nice guy but don’t worry, i will drink tea with my biscuit” i
replied, while he shrugged in resignation.
After
taking my night bath that evening, i took my biscuit and a cup of tea to his
room cos i promised to come and stay with him for a while in order to tell him
my story.
“Don’t
worry once i’m done with my night bath i will come and spend an hour with you”
i had said to him, when i finally composed myself and stopped my tears that
evening. He stared at me as if he was reading my mind through my eyes.
“Do
you promise? Cos i can’t wait to hear your story?” he asked, while i smiled and
nodded.
“Yea
i promise” i replied, before he stood up and left in order to give me space to
take my bath.
As
you all know, we girls do like to keep our secrets to ourselves but then
Benjamin really appeared very special to me, cos he had few friends
and didn’t socialize much. This made me to trust him and seriously
the feelings i had for him was equally so much that i was even ashamed of
myself sometimes. Yet, I couldn’t help it and at precisely 8:55pm that fateful
evening i saw myself in his room where we stared at each other as if we were
searching for something in our eyes.
“So
dear, i’m all ears” he said to me with a smile, while i drank my tea and smiled
back as i prepared to share my story with him.
And
there i sat in his room about to reveal my intimate secrets to a male who
really was nothing but a stranger to me, if not that i had feelings for him,
and with a smile on my face i opened my mouth to do what i never knew i would
ever do in my life.
Hmmmmm,
love really works wonders.
I
told him the first few chapters of my love life with Mike, which was focused
mainly on how we started and how he took away my virginity, which equally
turned him into a s-x addict, and truthfully i really knew not what pushed me
into revealing some part of my intimate life to him, even though i kept the
main part to myself, while he listened attentively with his eyes focused on me.
“So
how did it all end?” he seriously asked, while i breathed deeply cos i stopped
my story at the scene where Mike slapped me. A smile equally displayed on my
face as i noticed the excitement with which he asked the last question.
“I
will say our affair officially ended on his graduation day” i replied, as the
memory of that particular day rushed into my head, while Benjamin nodded his
head for me to continue.
Mike’s
graduation day really was a day i will never forget in a hurry and that night
was equally spectacular, as we made love all through in celebration of good
things to come, without knowing that I was celebrating the end of our
relationship.
That
particular day equally was a very great and special day for Mike, and his
happiness knew no bounds.
After
settling the hostel neighbours by giving them a carton of malt and beer to
share, he dragged me out from the hostel happily.
“Dearie
it’s you and i today, lets go catch some fun” he whispered into my ear, while i
giggled happily.
He
took me to a small fast food joint at the other end of the town, where he
spoiled me with chicken pepper soup and ice cream, together with sweet romantic
words which followed it.
It
really was one of the best romantic moments i ever had with him and i equally
was the happiest girl on earth that fateful day. When we got back to his room
around 8pm in the evening, he held me tenderly.
“Baby
thanks a lot for being by my side all through my struggle as a student” he
whispered, while my eyes melted. Oh I was so much in love with him as i
prepared myself to give him my body once again.
“Dear
please continue” i heard Benjamin say to me, while i stared back at him with a
smile on my face.
“Sometimes
a little girl needs to keep some stories to herself” i said and winked at him,
while he shifted unhappily where he sat.
“It
isn’t fair oo” he protested, which made me to smile further.
“I’m
very sorry but i can’t continue” i apologised, as i reached for his hand which
i held softly.
Truthfully,
i couldn’t really bring myself to share the rest of my story with him, cos a
girl really needs to keep some secrets to herself.
“I
think it’s time to get going” i said to Benjamin who just looked at me
unhappily.
“You
are not keeping your promise, it’s not what we agreed” he continued to protest
while i stood up.
“Don’t
worry in due time you will know everything” i said to him, while he shrugged.
“I
don’t have a choice nah, so let me just wait hopefully” he said to me, while i
laughed, carried my tea cup and left for my room.
I
rinsed my tea cup when i got to my room before lying down to sleep, but still
sleep eluded me once again, as the memory of my last moments with Mike flashed
back into my head.
His
goodbye really was the most sincere words he ever spoke to me and equally the
saddest words i ever heard, but then i misinterpreted his goodbye thinking that
it was just a normal parting words of a travelling boyfriend, without knowing
that it was a final goodbye from a guy abandoning his girlfriend and walking
out from a relationship which she jealously guided with her whole heart.
After
his final exams, he had only stayed for two weeks before packing up some of his
properties, even though his rent was yet to expire and my heart really skipped
countless times as i helped him pack his things, which i did out of loyalty and
not because i wanted him to leave.
“Why
are you leaving so soon, how about your clearance?” i had asked, while he just
smiled as he held me.
“Don’t
worry dear, they have all been taken care of and i’m just leaving because i
don’t want to waste any time in preparing the road for our future” he replied
sweetly, while i stared at him with a fast beating heart which was filled with
love.
“I’m
very scared” i said to him, while he smiled before kissing me passionately.
“You
have nothing to fear princess, i can never forget your beauty nor the love we
share together, just trust me, infact i should really be the one to be scared,
because you are too beautiful to be left alone” i heard him say, while i
blushed, because his sweet words were really too much for my inexperienced
little brain-washed head, and his lips rested on mine again, while his tongue
found its way into my mouth.
I
equally felt his touch as he caressed my young bosoms, which truly aroused me
very well and seriously he really had control over me, that i was just a toy in
his hands and even when we quarreled i forgave him easily even when
i swore not to.
As
we made love once again, i really didn’t know that it was a goodbye s-x as he
knacked, fondled, caressed and kissed me, all i did was just to enjoy every bit
of it without knowing that i was being dumped.
As
soon as Mike left the hostel, i felt very empty and it looked as if i had lost
something precious, cos i really had gotten used to his presence. I couldn’t
even stay five minutes without thinking about him, nor stay an hour without
flashing or calling his phone.
Seriously
it really appeared as if my whole life depended on him and that was equally
when i started to notice some changes in him.
His
phone calls drastically reduced to the extent of twice on a very good week,
which i really didn’t care about, since i did most of the calling, but the one
which pained me the most was when he didn’t call me on my birthday, but only
sent me a text message which got me extremely annoyed……
“How
can a text message be compared to his sweet voice?” i had asked myself
throughout that day as i waited patiently for his phone call which never came.
Yet with tears in my eyes i read his text message over and over again till i
finally slept that fateful night without hearing his voice.
“Or
was he waiting for me to call him on my own birthday?” i wondered sorrowfully.
It
really was very disheartening to receive phone calls from friends who
meant nothing to me, while the person i called my boyfriend found it very hard
to call me and that moment was equally when i began to have serious doubts
about him.
“Did
i truly choose the right person?” i asked myself over and over again that
fateful night.
I
didn’t expect him to buy me jewels, nor clothes, because i knew he just
graduated, but all i wanted was just to hear his voice that particular day
which was very hard for him to satisfy me with.
I
couldn’t control my emotions the following day and with a shaking hand, i
dialed his phone number.
“Hey
baby, what’s up?” he asked when he picked his phone, but due to my anger i
couldn’t answer him, but instead poured out my unhappiness to him.
“You
have really changed! You can’t even call me on my birthday, you are very
heartless, please don’t call my number again!”
I
poured out to him before ending the call. Even though i shouted at him, i
really had expected him to call me back. So I held my phone hopefully thinking
that he would call back but he equally found it too difficult to call back. I
really can’t describe how i felt that moment cos i was more than devastated. He
finally called me around 9pm, but due to my anger i refused to answer my phone,
which rang five times before a text message came in.
The
text message was from him and when i read it, i nearly fainted.
“I
know it will come to this one day but i never expected it could be so soon,
anyway goodluck with your life, i know you are with another guy that’s why you
are not answering your phone. I won’t disturb you again just as you ordered”
The
text message he sent me really smote my heart and tears dropped out from my
eyes as I read it over and over again.
“So
Mike had never trusted me”, i said to myself as i cried and the urge to call
him back and beg him that moment was so great, that i had to drop my phone.
“Life
why are you this cruel?” i heard myself ask. Amara my roomate rushed to my side
with concern written all over her face but i said nothing as i handed my phone
to her. Her face equally turned white as she read the text message Mike sent
me.
“Hmmmm
so so cruel”, i said to myself as all the memories kept flashing back……
“Baby
girl, this text message shouldn’t depress you nah. I believe he is just angry,
you know how guys behave sometimes” Amara tried to console me but yet i was
unable to stop myself from crying that night.
The
following morning, she called him with her own phone but he refused to answer
which really surprised Amara and all she did was just to shrug and shake her
head.
“Don’t
get yourself worked up over him, he should be the person to cry for you, so
dear lets forget about him and prepare for market, you know our food stuffs
have finished” she said to me as she expertly changed the topic.
Mike
never called me, neither did i see him for the rest of that year but i soon
pushed him to the back of my mind as i focused all my energy in my studies,
which was why i came to school in the first place and not to fall in love with
someone who doesn’t deserve me.
However
that period was very traumatic for me, cos i woke up sometimes feeling very
lonely and h—y. What really kept me going was my determination to get over him
as i swore not to be so easily used again. Although i couldn’t really believe
that a guy like Mike, who took me when i was very pure could easily forget me,
as if i never existed. This equally made my heart very strong and hard towards
guys that most of them avoided me because of my cold behaviour towards them.
It
was also because of my past with Mike, which made me to pack out from my former
hostel and move into the hostel where i met Benjamin.
Hmmm,
Benjamin. The guy who softened me a bit and made my heart beat fast again.
“Hope
I’m not making a major mistake again?” i asked myself as i tossed around on my
bed but then i really didn’t know how his charms were able to soften my heart
and turn me back to a sweet girl capable of loving again.
I
was still thinking about him when my phone rang briefly and stopped, when i
checked the caller, it was no other person than Benjamin who had flashed me. A
smile appeared on my face.I checked the time it was 12:15am.
“Why
is he awake by this time of the night? Is he thinking about me?” i asked myself
with a smile, and i was still pondering over it when sleep finally carried me
away.
Oh
my Benjamin……
“i
like Benjamin very much, but i’m scared of making another mistake” i confessed
to Amara, on our way back to our hostel from school the following day, while
she just smiled,
“sometimes i don’t understand you” i heard her say, which made me to stare at her in surprise,
“what do you mean?” i asked,
“nothing oo jare” she replied, which only made me more curious to know what she had in mind,
“nawa for you, tell me what you have in mind nah?” i insisted, and she stared at me for a while, with a very serious look on her face,
“your problem with Mike happened last year, what i don’t understand is why you are still mourning him, and equally punishing yourself till now” she said, which really shocked me immensely……..
“sometimes i don’t understand you” i heard her say, which made me to stare at her in surprise,
“what do you mean?” i asked,
“nothing oo jare” she replied, which only made me more curious to know what she had in mind,
“nawa for you, tell me what you have in mind nah?” i insisted, and she stared at me for a while, with a very serious look on her face,
“your problem with Mike happened last year, what i don’t understand is why you are still mourning him, and equally punishing yourself till now” she said, which really shocked me immensely……..
“who
told you i’m still mourning mike or punishing myself?” i asked seriously,
“isn’t it obvious that you are, it’s been months since you last had a guy in your life, which kind of punishment is more than that?” she fired back,
“abeg oo it’s no punishment to me, i’m single and happy” i replied with a smile, while she laughed for a while…….
“isn’t it obvious that you are, it’s been months since you last had a guy in your life, which kind of punishment is more than that?” she fired back,
“abeg oo it’s no punishment to me, i’m single and happy” i replied with a smile, while she laughed for a while…….
“comot
there jare! pretender, don’t tell me that cra.p again jor” she said with
laughter, while i eyed her…….
One
thing i really do love about my friend Amara, is her honest and blunt nature,
and she never hid her feelings from me, even for a single day, though sometimes
she may be annoying,
“if
you like, continue to play hide and seek with that poor boy’s feelings, i have
nothing else to tell you again” she added, while i slapped her shoulder,
“madam it’s okay nah” i said to her……..
“madam it’s okay nah” i said to her……..
Falling
in love for the second time isn’t that easy, especially when you have been so
terribly dealt with, the first time, but then love is an inevitable force of
attraction which do come to every human being, and when it comes, carries your
whole body, soul and even sense of reasoning with it………
Truly
i was so scared of being hurt again, cos i knew i barely managed to survive my
first heart break, which really wasn’t easy for me and seriously i equally
didn’t know how my friends, especially Amara were able to jump from one
relationship to another without any emotional break down,
“how i wish i could just be like them” i had often said countless times, but then i really couldn’t be like them, because we are not the same…….
“how i wish i could just be like them” i had often said countless times, but then i really couldn’t be like them, because we are not the same…….
We
soon got to our hostel, where Amara gave me a sweet smile before going to her
own room, which she shared with her boyfriend
“take care, i will come to your room later” she said as she smiled……..
“take care, i will come to your room later” she said as she smiled……..
As
i unlocked my door, Benjamin came out from his own room, with a sweet smile on
his face,
“finally you are back, i have been lonely all day” he said as he came towards me, while i stared at him with a smile, and i felt like hugging him that moment, as my body yearned for his arms around me, but i kept myself in check, and swallowed my wishes, because i equally knew he had no morale to hug me in that manner in a hostel corridor,
“finally you are back, i have been lonely all day” he said as he came towards me, while i stared at him with a smile, and i felt like hugging him that moment, as my body yearned for his arms around me, but i kept myself in check, and swallowed my wishes, because i equally knew he had no morale to hug me in that manner in a hostel corridor,
But
surprisinly he drew close and hugged me, which really drew out dimples from my
face,
“i
couldn’t sleep last night because i was thinking about us” i equally heard him
whisper……
“Hmmm
love is full of surprises”….
we
entered my room together, where he sat quietly on my bed and watched as i
quickly prepared rice that afternoon, cos i returned from school with hunger.
But the way he stared at me that afternoon really made me to lose concentration
a couple of times and equally made me uncomfortable…….
“please
stop staring at me nah” i finally muttered while he laughed,
“but i can’t stop myself from staring at you nah” he replied with my tone, which made me to sigh with a smile,
“you better go back to your room and watch your t.v, since you are looking for who to watch” i fired back while he laughed out loud
“watching you cook is more interesting than any t.v programme” he joked while i eyed him,
“big head” i cursed
“flat nyash” he cursed back,
“na there your eyes go see fast” i replied, while he fell on the bed as he laughed,
“madam cook fast, i’m very hungry” he said as he laughed,
“i’m not your mother” i replied, as i eyed him…….
“but i can’t stop myself from staring at you nah” he replied with my tone, which made me to sigh with a smile,
“you better go back to your room and watch your t.v, since you are looking for who to watch” i fired back while he laughed out loud
“watching you cook is more interesting than any t.v programme” he joked while i eyed him,
“big head” i cursed
“flat nyash” he cursed back,
“na there your eyes go see fast” i replied, while he fell on the bed as he laughed,
“madam cook fast, i’m very hungry” he said as he laughed,
“i’m not your mother” i replied, as i eyed him…….
After
cooking, i freshened up in my bathroom, before dishing out the rice i cooked on
a large plate. We ate together in silence and the way he ate really told me
that he was actually hungry…..
“you
cook nice but my mum cook’s better sha” he finally joked with a smile when he
was filled up, while i eyed him,
“because you don fill you stomach nah, why didn’t you make that comment earlier?” i asked with an angry mien, while he smiled,
“hope there is still some left in the pot?” he also asked,
“why are you asking?” i asked back with a frown,
“cos i will still eat at night nah” he replied, while i sighed with a smile, seriously that boy’s head needed to be spanked that moment……..
“because you don fill you stomach nah, why didn’t you make that comment earlier?” i asked with an angry mien, while he smiled,
“hope there is still some left in the pot?” he also asked,
“why are you asking?” i asked back with a frown,
“cos i will still eat at night nah” he replied, while i sighed with a smile, seriously that boy’s head needed to be spanked that moment……..
We
were soon in his room where we joked and laughed as we watched a movie and i
really was very glad that he finally was able to feel free with me……..
I
really knew not how it happened, but i soon found myself in his arms, as he
kissed me tenderly, he wasn’t a good kisser, but i still enjoyed it as i closed
my eyes, and i was equally thrown into another world when he squeezed my left
b—m, and the feelings i had that moment was just heavenly. But as i was still
enjoying his touch, he suddenly stopped and looked into my eyes, while i opened
mine and stared back at him, a little embarrassed……
“this
is my first time of being this close with a girl” he confessed as he swallowed
hard, while i stared at him in silence, cos i really knew not how to react or
what to say, but then his eyes really said it all as he looked into mine……..
“so
Benjamin is actually a virgin” i said to myself, as i stared back at him with a
fast beating heart…….
To
be continued…
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