“no dear it dosen’t” i replied sweetly, and he heaved a sigh of relief, before giving me a kiss on my cheek…….
I truly didn’t know what else to tell him, and so i stared silently at him, which he equally noticed. He drew closer to me and whispered into my right ear……
“hope you are alright baby? Because you are yet to make any comment” he asked, while i breathed deeply and said nothing………
“i know you are very surprised?” he asked as he held my right hand. I nodded and smiled,
“sure i’m, because it is very hard to believe that at your age and level you have never been intimate with a woman, even for once” i replied, and he looked down unhappily with a drawn jaw,
“i know something caused it and i can read it in your eyes and expression, tell me what is it?” i curiously inquired, but he just fidgeted and looked away…..
“open up to me Ben, you will gain my trust more by opening up” i added, while he bit his lips and stared at me painfully,
“i dated a girl for four years without s-x” he confessed and looked down in shame and pain. I reached out my hand and drew his face up, and into his eyes i gazed,
“tell me how it all happened dear?” i asked curiously, with a fast beating heart, while he shook his head……..
“i loved her with my whole body, soul and spirit, but she took them all in her hand and crushed, as if it was nothing” he said unhappily, while i strongly held his hand as i listened to him……….
“so tell me about her” i quietly urged, and he swallowed hard, and bit his lips,
“we started dating right from our ss3, because she was my classmate and we equally got admitted into this university the same year. All went well at first, even though we never had s-x, just because she said we should save it for marriage, which i had no problem with, since i loved and trusted her with all my heart, moreover she equally was a good christian, so i had no doubt over her fidelity, but then everything changed last year, when she started to hang out with a boy she introduced as her coursemate to me, and before i knew what was happening she finally told me that she dosen’t have feeling’s for me any more” he narrated sadly, while my heart weep for him…..
I drew his hands and embraced him, while he tightly held me, as if he was my child,
“oh Benjamin, only if you havn’t been so dull, this wouldn’t have happened to you” i said to myself as we held each other, and my love for him equally doubled, because i also deserved to have a male virgin for myself…….
Can two broken hearts linked together make a very giant strong heart of love??
Hmmmm…..
He tried to kiss me again, but i politely pushed his face away, and his expression changed as he looked at me curiously,
“hope i no fall hands by confessing to you” he anxiously asked in pidgin english, while i bursted into laughter,
“no dear you didn’t” i answered amidst laughter as i equally caressed his face a bit, he kept quiet and just watched me…….
“it’s just that i have to get going, because i have a school assignment i wish to tackle this evening” i explained, while he shruggled,
“okay but i do feel you are running away from me” he replied, and i breathed deeply,
“dear i will return once i’m done with my assignment” i assured him, while he shruggled again,
“it’s okay and also remember to bring another plate of rice when coming” he added. I then got up with a smile and left his room……..
I truly had no assignment to do that evening, but i only wanted to be alone for a moment, in order to control and calm myself down, because i didn’t want to betray my excitement, moreover his confession really overwhelmed me, because i never dreamt i’d be so lucky to have a male virgin, whom i like so much for myself……
“hmmm am i not a lucky girl?” i asked my image as i stared at my mirror with a smile, and just that moment i heard a knock on my door………
I opened my door happily, because i thought it was Amara my best friend who was at my door, because she earlier promised to show up, but my smile quickly disappeared when i saw Dave standing at the door way…….
“hullo pretty girl i came to keep you company” he said with a smile as he walked into my room, without even waiting for me to admit him in, while i froze in fear because everyone knew him as a notorious cultist…..
However Dave really was a very handsome and rich guy, who spoiled himself by belonging to a cult group, and he so much was into it, that he was very popular within and outside the hostel and school environment, and he equally was a boy who thought the world only revolved around money and cultism……
As he sat on my bed with a smile, i wondered what really brought him to my room, by that time of the day………..
He crossed his leg as he stared at me with a confident smile, while i sat on my plastic chair and faced him with a drawn face. Even though i was scared, i never showed it
“are you not happy that i came to your room?” i heard him ask, while i shook my head and forced out a smile,
“i’m not feeling fine, and i was even about to sleep before you knocked” i replied……..
“but i just saw you coming out from benjamin’s room minutes ago?” he asked knowingly. I just kept quiet and held my jaw with both hands,
“but on a serious note why is a pretty girl like you, always hanging out with someone with no *swag*?” he asked with a serious look on his face. I breathed deeply as i stared into his eyes with disgust,
“i like boys with no swag” i replied, in a manner which would even make a brave ‘jew student’ raise his eye brow in fear, but i cared not, because i really didn’t like even the air he breathed…….
“baby are we quarreling nah? Please i’m also your friend” he said calmly, while i shifted uneasily on my chair,
“i’m so sorry for the tone i used, it’s just that i need to rest, please” i said to him, while he shruggled, stood up and came to my side…….
“okay dear i will check on you tomorrow, please do take care of yourself” he said to me as he caressed my hair a bit, while i held my breath as i equally restricted myself from making any annoying comment, because his touch really was very irritating, but then i equally was more annoyed with his composure, because he just behaved confidently as if he owned both i and the hostel……..
He finally left my room with a well composed smile, which really annoyed me more, but i soon forgot all about him as i rested for a while, before warming my rice, and dishing out some for benjamin……
However as i stepped out from my room with a plate of rice around 9:00pm, i ran into him again, as he was coming out from the hostel balcony, and he smiled as he saw me,
“nne seems like you are now okay?” he asked jovially, while i smiled and passed him………
Benjamin was very happy when i brought the rice for him, and he thanked me countless times as he devoured it, while i smiled confidently as i watched him eat…….
I really didn’t tell him about Dave’s visit, which appeared very irrelevant to be discussed at that time, but then a part of me really urged me to tell him, but i suppressed and kept it to myself, even though i really didn’t know whether i did the right thing, especially with the events which later unfolded…….
“please can you sleep in my room tonight?” i heard myself ask benjamin, who froze for a while as he stared at me in surprise. I really didn’t know what pushed me to make such demand, but i guess it was because i very much scared of Dave and what he could do, which really didn’t make a whole lot of sense, but then i equally knew in my mind that i secretly wanted to spend the night with Benjamin..,…
However i also knew what i did when i made such demand, because as a girl it could have been easier for me to sleep in his room, but because of my pride i had rephrased my demand, which i knew any sharp guy would understand the hidden meaning……..
But Benjamin really was at lost on what to say, and he just stared at me for a while before he was able to find his voice,
“hope everything is okay?” he asked with concern, while i just nodded,
“yea it’s just that i’m having a bad feeling which is making me to be scared” i replied,
“don’t worry dear, i will be by your side tonight” he assured me with a smile, while i smiled in appreciation, even though i equally was disappointed that he didn’t insist for me to sleep in his room, which most guys would have done…….
However nothing really happened that night in my room, even though we both laid awake till very late in the night. I really was awake because it was my first time of spending the night with another boy, since i broke up with my Ex, while i easily noticed that Benjamin was also awake, because he kept tossing around on my bed. I really didn’t know whether it was because he was uncomfortable in my room that made him toss around, or because he was summoning the courage to touch me…….
He finally drew close and held me, which delighted me very much, but i kept quiet and pretended to be asleep. To my greatest dismay he didn’t go further or do anything else to me, before we finally slept…….
Hmmmm, anyway even though i was disappointed that night, my respect for him equally grew, because he behaved like a gentleman…….
We woke up very late the following morning, and it was a steady knock on my door which really woke us, and i really was forced to open my door, when the person knocking refused to give up……..
It was precisely 7:05AM when i opened my door that fateful morning, to see Dave standing on my door-way, with hands in his pocket, and a fixed smile on his face……..
I blocked my slightly opened door with my body, which prevented him from walking into my room, just like he did the previous day. However he never showed any surprise, but instead continued to smile sweetly…….
“how was your night, i came as soon as i woke up, because i want your face to be the first thing i will see this morning” he said, while i smiled,
“thanks i’m very fine, but you also woke me from sleep” i complained as i rubbed my eyes…….
“i’m so sorry dear, will you be going out today?” he asked,
“yea i will and why do you ask?” i replied,
“i just want to spend some time with you” he explained, while i shruggled, “well that will be another day” i answered………
Instead of leaving, he still stood and watched me, while i returned his gaze without knowing what else to say to him,
“you are really so beautiful dear, and i will do anything just to win your heart” he said sweetly and fluently, while i smiled,
“thanks sha, but you need not bother because you won’t succeed, moreover i already have a guy” i replied calmly, which made him to smile,
“you mean him?” he asked, as he pointed towards Benjamin’s room……..
“please i’m yet to brush nor clean up, lets talk later” i heard myself say to him, but just that moment Amara appeared from nowhere and stood beside him, with a smile,
“baby good morning, i’m so sorry i was unable to show up yesterday, abeg shift make i enter nah” she said playfully, while my legs shook, as my heart leaped, because benjamin was in my room, probably still in my bed, a situation i really didn’t want her to witness, because i really havn’t told her much about Benjamin, and she might misinterpret the whole thing…….
“baby give way nah, make i enter” she said again, while i hesitantly opened my door a little wider, in order for her to enter,
“Dave thanks for checking up on me, we will continue our discussion some other time” i said to Dave with a sweet smile, as i closed my door………
With a fast beating heart, i turned and faced my room, but surprisinly i saw Benjamin seated at the edge of my bed, well composed and engrossed in his mobile phone which he was playing with. I breathed deeply…….
Yet Amara still smiled and eyed me suspiciously, as she turned to face me again……
“we will chat later since your friend is already here” i heard Ben say nervously, as he stood up and left, while i smiled as i locked my door before facing Amara again, who still continued to look at me suspiciously…….
“i just noticed many things” she said to me with a smile,
“things like what?” i asked, but she just shruggled……
“dear friend, hope you are not planning to keep this away from me??” she asked with a little laugh,
“Hope you are not planning to deny that you just slept with benjamin??” she seriously asked me, while i gasped…….
“no i didn’t ooo” i seriously replied as i fell on my bed, and clutched my teddy bear with a smile,
“sharrap you liar” i heard Amara say with a smile,
“didn’t Benjamin sleep here last night?” she asked seriously, as if she already was aware he did, while i wondered whether she really knew, or was just trying to play with my intelligence……
I breathed deeply and stared at her,
“yes he did, but there was no s-x ooo” i replied, while her face lit up momentarily with bright eyes, which soon died away as she stared at me again in surprise,
“huh what did you just say?? Do you mean you two didn’t??” she asked, while i seriously nodded to her,
“yea we didn’t do anything, he is a complete gentleman” i said with a smile……
“abeg go jare, you wan tell me, you didn’t wet your pant as you dey wait for him to do something?” she asked with a naughty smile,
“comot there, you chukuchuku girl, you too like bad thing, do you thing everybody behaves like you, thank God you no be man tufiakwa! things for happen well for your head” i said to her, while she laughed out loud……
“i was on my way coming, when i saw you both sneaking into your room last night so i just turned and returned to my room, but i came here this early, in order to confirm whether he actually slept here” she explained,
“infact you are jobless” i said to her with a smile…….
“so what’s up with you and Dave?” she enquired, while i shruggled,
“i don’t know what is wrong with that boy, he just started showing interest in me” i replied with a yawn,
“please be careful with that wolf ooo, don’t mind his innocent face, he is very dangerous” she advised me……
We chatted all through that morning happily, and we really had a great time, because Amara never lacks topics and so we ate together, gisted and joked till noon, when she left for her room……..
I immediately freshened up as soon as she left, before calling Benjamin on phone, in order to know where he was,
“i went to see my uncle, i will be back shortly” he replied,
“abeg buy something when returning, including Naija movies oo” i begged,
“ok madam i will” he replied, while i smiled……
I had barely ended the phone call when i heard someone knock on my door, i immediately knew it was Dave which really made my body temperature rise a bit. I breathed deeply and reached for my door, which i quietly opened, while he stood at the doorway with his usual decieving smile………
“may i come in?” he polietly asked, while i nodded, opened my door wider and made way for him to enter my room, which he did with a confident smile on his face….,.
Dave calmly entered my room with a confident smile on his face. I left my door ajar, and drew down my curtain, which then stood in its place, because i really didn’t want to lock myself inside my room with him.
“you are looking very lovely” he said with a smile as he sat on my bed. I sat on a plastic chair and forced out a smile,
“thanks ooo my God is alive” i replied…….
“so what plans do you have for the rest of the day?” he asked,
“i don’t understand your question” i replied as i gave him a curious look,
“how do you plan to spend the rest of the day?” he asked,
“oops now i understand, anyway i have no plans other than to read my books, sleep and eat” i replied a bit coldly,
“hmmm it’s okay sha” he muttered……..
We stayed in silence for a while, which really was one of my boring moments that particular day. I sat uneasily on my chair and browsed with my phone, as i equally prayed for Amara to show up and rescue me……
“globacom is hosting a show this evening in school, will you like to attend?” he later asked. I looked up in surprise and shook my head,
“really!, how come i didn’t hear about it” i muttered to myself loudly…..
“so will you like to attend?, i heard tuface, sound sultan and other musicians will be coming?” he asked anxiously, but i just bit my lips and looked away,
“no i don’t think i will go” i replied, even though i secretly was dying to attend such a show, but then i really couldn’t accept to go out with such a boy, whom i knew was all out to impress me, till he gets whatever he had in mind, moreover attending such a show with him, might end up into another thing which i equally was very scared to think of…..
“what are you thinking” he asked, stood up and drew close to me, while i immediately composed myself and smiled,
“nothing i’m fine” i replied, but he squatted by my side and held my hands,
“i know you don’t trust me, i can see it in your eyes, but no matter the opinion you may have about me, just know that i’m also human, who deserves to be shown love and respect which you are not even showing to me” he said as he stared into my eyes……
“what do you mean?” i heard myself ask, but he laughed,
“i can read your eyes, you despise me because you know i belong to a secret cult, but dear if you should hear my story, you won’t really blame me at all” he said calmly.
“i’m already in love with you which i can’t help, please just take me as a friend. It hurts me very much whenever you treat me like dirt, just like you did this morning, please don’t look at my outside nature, but look inside me, and decide for yourself, whether i’m that bad” he added, while his face changed as if he wanted to cry……..
I really was touched, but all i could do was just to look away and stand up,
“i have heard you, but it won’t change anything, we will continue to be friends and nothing more, just as you asked for” i replied………
“it’s okay by me, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a step” i heard him say as he stood up,
“what do you mean” i asked in surprise, but he just laughed,
“don’t mind me dear, it’s really nothing” he replied,
“but i have one more request” he added, while i turned and faced him,
“what is it?” i asked.
“please i need just a friendly hug from you, to mark our friendship, then i will leave” he begged, while i bit my lips and looked away,
“cm’on what’s so hard in it?, a friendly hug won’t do you anything” he begged…..
I shruggled as i breathed deeply, hesitantly drew close and hugged him, while he tightly held me a bit longer than i had in mind……….
Unluckily Benjamin came in that very moment…………..
To be continued…
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